I don’t even know where to fucking start. Let’s start when Cooley admitted to posting my nudes, but having someone else do it, me punching the shit out of him, and then this boy just completely smacking Cooley across the face for me. That was the best part of my night. Then, I ran into Megan. That was just annoying and fucking awkward. What was worse? Jon’s friends being there, and friends with some of my friends. I really just wanted to kill myself at this point. Plus, Jerod was there and the DJ that likes me. At this point I’m stoned, and drunk. Jon just didn’t want to stop tweeting. A spent a good hour and a half sitting on a counter in the back just staring at my phone. Feeling like complete shit. I only danced on girls the whole night, and turned out all the guys that asked to dance with me. I just wanted to dance with Jon. He and Corey went through my tumblr, so well, there-a-go. I’ve been sitting here, trying to just make the best out of all of this. But, all Jon is doing is being completely hostile now and not just talking to me about anything. I’d appreciate it if he did. This really isn’t like him, but then again, I’ve never seen him completely pissed off at me before. But, this honestly really fucking sucks. Ever have that feeling like you let the greatest thing to ever happen to you start to slip away so much you just couldn’t hold on anymore and now you sit there at the edge not knowing whether to jump after him or run to the bottom to catch him? That’s how I feel with Jonathan. Yeah, I fucked up, but at least I’m correcting my wrongs and I’m right back here waiting. I don’t even know what I want to say anymore.